The Boozehound

[ Tuesday, April 29, 2003 ]

 
So there aint much been going on around here.Got all the Java working, tests and the lot. Nearly all of the Javadoc. But everything works and it passes the tests. Forwarded it all to Al this morning who is already at work plugging it into to the GUI.
There aint been fuck all going on. Jason decided to drink a load of double vodkas and orange on Sunday night. Monday came, did work. Went to bar on the night, Compsoc was off. But then Burt ended up sitting in the PJM bar anyway. The boy has a weak will. More work today. Tomorrow I have the pleasure of getting up at 7 - 7:30 to spend 4 hours queueing for May Ball tickets. Oh yea speaking of which I hired a suit. Well a tux kinda thing. Not gonna wear that though, well just the jacket. Gonna wear the black shirt, Crone has dispatched me a blood red tie. Ill probably paint my nails black as well. Get that gothy/grebo sorta look going. I wish Ally was single so I could take her to the ball. Not because I like her like that but she is going Goth as well. Wearing a dark purple vampireesque dress. Very gothic.
Fish keeps bugging me to ask Rach.

Looks like Payne and Clare are togeather as well. I tell you everyone seems to be getting hitched up with people lately, cant help but think of something I read in a book somewhere:

"Ever since college Id make friends then theyd get married and Id lose friends"

Yea, I feel lonely. Ah Fight Club that was the book. Never read so many true yet nasty things in one book. Right think I may do some java work. Not much though. Been at it all day and really cant concentrate on anything at the moment.
My tutorial group have organised to meet tomorrow as well. At 11. Im not going to be there. I was told literally this morning while I was sitting in the Union eating a sandwich. They said they have it book till 1. If I get the tickets in time I will be there. If they decided to give me more than a days notice I would have got someone else to go and get the tickets. I was originally told eithier Monday or Tuesday night. Gah. Well Ill have to talk to Jonny again to see which parts Ive got to say and which he has as Ive lost it. Silly fuckin me eh?

Nevermind. Hmm actually the full thing is on Friday. I know they are gonna bust my ass about not being there but its too late now.
Blaggard [8:46 PM]

[ Sunday, April 27, 2003 ]

 
Gah I feel like a corpse. Im tired. Worn. The thought of any more work makes me want to vomit. Last night was really good though. As the PJM bar wasnt open we all ended up going into town. Which was good. Went to The Varsity first and we all caught up. That was good, to see everyone again. We went over to the Acadamy, Crazy Gemma joined us there. She is trying to get gem gems brother to come down for the May Ball. Well good luck to her. Ive been thinking about asking Helen. But I most likely wont. Clare has asked Payne to go, she says she really likes him. Which is odd, considered her usual sexual preference. Hehe, guess I feel kinda jealous about it. No idea why, its not like I was after her.
Anyway back to the matter at hand. We went from there to The Glen. The Glen was packed, actually had people drinking up in there. I was suitable shocked and awed. Payne was along with us last night. Met some of Migs friends in there. Mig went after a while though. We went over to The Bay and met Clare. The Bay was really good. Good vibe in there, shit even the bouncers were been nice to people. Glad I went there.
Rhi was on about going to that club Yoko place on Friday. K2's replacement. Im told its meant to excellent, by those in the know.

Well Easter is pretty much done and dealt with now. Lectures are back in the works tomorrow. Im gonna get up early, try and be in B57 for 10ish. Get some help with the JUnit stuff. I got no idea how to get it to work. Find that boy Alistair as well. Havent seen him in almost a month, see what hes got done. I have faith in the lad though. He wont fuck it up. Try and get the whole thing out of the way this week. Concentrate on everything else that has to be done then. Revision. Exams. Havin a good few brewskis.

oooo, PJM bar is open.
Blaggard [8:11 PM]

 
Gah I feel like a corpse. Im tired. Worn. The thought of any more work makes me want to vomit. Last night was really good though. As the PJM bar wasnt open we all ended up going into town. Which was good. Went to The Varsity first and we all caught up. That was good, to see everyone again. We went over to the Acadamy, Crazy Gemma joined us there. She is trying to get gem gems brother to come down for the May Ball. Well good luck to her. Ive been thinking about asking Helen. But I most likely wont. Clare has asked Payne to go, she says she really likes him. Which is odd, considered her usual sexual preference. Hehe, guess I feel kinda jealous about it. No idea why, its not like I was after her.
Anyway back to the matter at hand. We went from there to The Glen. The Glen was packed, actually had people drinking up in there. I was suitable shocked and awed. Payne was along with us last night. Met some of Migs friends in there. Mig went after a while though. We went over to The Bay and met Clare. The Bay was really good. Good vibe in there, shit even the bouncers were been nice to people. Glad I went there.
Rhi was on about going to that club Yoko place on Friday. K2's replacement. Im told its meant to excellent, by those in the know.

Well Easter is pretty much done and dealt with now. Lectures are back in the works tomorrow. Im gonna get up early, try and be in B57 for 10ish. Get some help with the JUnit stuff. I got no idea how to get it to work. Find that boy Alistair as well. Havent seen him in almost a month, see what hes got done. I have faith in the lad though. He wont fuck it up. Try and get the whole thing out of the way this week. Concentrate on everything else that has to be done then. Revision. Exams. Havin a good few brewskis.

oooo, PJM bar is open.
Blaggard [8:10 PM]

 
Gah I feel like a corpse. Im tired. Worn. The thought of any more work makes me want to vomit. Last night was really good though. As the PJM bar wasnt open we all ended up going into town. Which was good. Went to The Varsity first and we all caught up. That was good, to see everyone again. We went over to the Acadamy, Crazy Gemma joined us there. She is trying to get gem gems brother to come down for the May Ball. Well good luck to her. Ive been thinking about asking Helen. But I most likely wont. Clare has asked Payne to go, she says she really likes him. Which is odd, considered her usual sexual preference. Hehe, guess I feel kinda jealous about it. No idea why, its not like I was after her.
Anyway back to the matter at hand. We went from there to The Glen. The Glen was packed, actually had people drinking up in there. I was suitable shocked and awed. Payne was along with us last night. Met some of Migs friends in there. Mig went after a while though. We went over to The Bay and met Clare. The Bay was really good. Good vibe in there, shit even the bouncers were been nice to people. Glad I went there.
Rhi was on about going to that club Yoko place on Friday. K2's replacement. Im told its meant to excellent, by those in the know.

Well Easter is pretty much done and dealt with now. Lectures are back in the works tomorrow. Im gonna get up early, try and be in B57 for 10ish. Get some help with the JUnit stuff. I got no idea how to get it to work. Find that boy Alistair as well. Havent seen him in almost a month, see what hes got done. I have faith in the lad though. He wont fuck it up. Try and get the whole thing out of the way this week. Concentrate on everything else that has to be done then. Revision. Exams. Havin a good few brewskis.

oooo, PJM bar is open.
Blaggard [8:10 PM]

[ Saturday, April 26, 2003 ]

 
Well Ive done very little today. Did some work this morning. Wrote all my additional notes for the group presentation. Started some of the documentation for the Java project. Sat here and did very little. No one is on MSN. Hell I got no motivation today at all. Ive started tweaking my computer to give it a performance increase for fucks sake. Windows Update is running as we speak. Im told Gem Gem is back, I heard Rhi clamber in earlier but I think shes already gone. But then I dont really hear much when the computer is on, hurricane and the like. That and earpones I suppose. Ate a tin of salmon. Palin has headed back for the weekend. Direct X 9.0 has just started to download. Spent too long watching Kittie music videos and posting aimless and altogeather pointless posts over on Fark.com. Ben is back now Im told.
Finished Unreal 2 yesterday. What a big disapointment that game was. Short, extremly easy and one the weakest story lines Ive encountered in a long time. The original one was much better than that. Tried to get my webcam working again, that failed.

Could just get drunk. Hmmm. Nah, do that 2nite.

/got nuthin.
Blaggard [2:42 PM]

 
Rach and Helen got back yesterday as well. We went out for a few beers on the evening. Rummers and Acadamy. Clare keeps trying to push me into asking people to the May Ball. I fully do intend to ask someone, as friends though. Dont want things to get all complicated. There is enough complication in my life without adding to it. May ask Rach, she seems to have the same sort of idea as me. The ole "Lets just go and get really really shit faced". Thats always good. Well.....in 2 out 3 occasions it is. Everyone came back to this smoke filled pit of decay and watched Zoolander. That has to have been the worst film I have ever seen in my life. It was horrific. Spencer and Palin fell asleep. Helen I think was the only one that liked it. Odd girl.
Went to sleep. Had an extremly trouble nights sleep. Dreamt about odd and disturbing things again. The other night I dreamt I was back with Jess. That put The Fear, not the idea of being back with her, just the idea that maybe that dream was the ole mind trying to kick me in the arse about something. Something I really dont want it to. Fuck it. Too late to worry now. Lets just hunker down, get more work done and pray for a perfect day.
Blaggard [11:29 AM]

[ Friday, April 25, 2003 ]

 
Sometimes all you need darkness and all too sombre music.

Alone. It seems to last forever sometimes. Who am I trying to fool. It does last forever. We were born alone and we will die alone too.

Everyone you ever love will reject you or die.
Everything you ever create will end up as rubbish.
Everything your ever proud of will be thrown away.


Blaggard [12:10 AM]

[ Thursday, April 24, 2003 ]

 
Those herbal E's were duds. Nothing happened. Not a damn thing. No lift, no running around, no higher plane. Hell a few cups of Rocket Fuel probably would have done me a lot better in that sense. Tuesday night we went down and sat in Rummers, Palin was back you see. Last night we did the same thing, spent the whole night in there. Didnt get drunk on eithier occasion. Although Tuesday I spent alot of the day in some pub or other. Went to Varsity with Clare in the day, ended up in the Ship and Castle. Got back. Palin was here so we decided lets go for a pint. Everyone gets back on Saturday. Get drunk and the like.
Blaggard [10:38 AM]

[ Wednesday, April 23, 2003 ]

 
Right Ive just eaten one of those herbal E's. Ears tried one, said they did fuck all. Well about to find out i guess....

Ill write about it on here.
Blaggard [12:30 PM]

[ Tuesday, April 22, 2003 ]

 
Hero of the week

Some criminals deserve medals. This guy deserves more.
Blaggard [11:00 AM]

[ Monday, April 21, 2003 ]

 
Excellent. Finally got my java list to work. Now just need to figure out JUnit testing......fuck.
Blaggard [7:39 PM]

 
Clare got back yesterday. After she used my debit card to order a load of stuff we hit the bars at about 5:30. I had two pints all night mind. We ate in the Varisity, Steak and Ale pie, it was delcious. We ended up in the Ship and Castle. Everyone was shit faced. It was an odd sight. The place was rammed, jammed to the walls. Everyone was blind drunk. We managed to get a seat in the corner with a doberman named Tara. Tried to play pool but it all went to pot when two drunk guys tried explaining the rules. We left in the end to be confronted with a guy passed out of the pavement and some girl screaming her head off. It was great. Then we went to the Glen and played 5 or 6 games of pool straight. Was a good day. Even did some revision.

Its raining now.
Blaggard [12:04 PM]

[ Sunday, April 20, 2003 ]

 
So here we are once again. A few days gone by since the last post. Helen and Laura came down on Friday. We spent nearly all day on the beach. Just sitting and staring at the waves or throwing rocks into the sea. We ate ice cream. All of us got sun burnt. I took them to the Varsity and ate curly fries, it was very hot. Later in the afternoon I took them to the viewpoint. They really liked the view. Cooked them pizza on the night. Then we went into town on the evening. It was dead though. I had failed to realise that everywhere shuts extremly early on a good friday, 10:30 to be exact, with no clubs opening. So we grabbed some coke from Spar and came back here to hit the vodka. Stayed up till 3am drinking vodka and shooting the breeze. Joesph got a bit drunk. They had to go back on Saturday. Took them to Spoons for lunch and then saw them off on the train. Kinda miss them now, its so quiet.
I decided to tell Rhi about Ears and Kingdingaling going in her room. She freaked as I expected. Apparently shes not angry with me though, just the other two.
Its Easter Sunday today. I am Joe's sense of complete indifference. The Crone got really bitchy that I wasnt going to be there today. Fuck knows why. Its not like she is good Christian, into all the spiritulism. Half the Church condemns it has black magic and witchcraft.
For some reason Ive been thinking about that degenerate filth pit the RockCafe lately. Why I dont know. But Ive been thinking about those early Tuesday mornings after the heavy sessions on the nights. Up at 6:30am, feeling like shit after about 4 hours sleep. Hungover like hell. On the bus by 8am. Ill never forget those Tuesday morning bus rides. I'dsee people that were in the cafe the night before, looking about as bad as I was. Theyd nod at me as I walked past to a seat. Was almost like a sign of respect. Because by the end everyone knew us in that place. As sad as that it is I suppose. The owners would come and talk to us, ask how our weeks had being. Its completly different there now apparently. They actually cracked down on the underage drinking. Picturehouse on a Thursday is where all the underage goons go now. If I was still there Id probably be hanging around there myself. Ah the Cafe was always my sort of place though. Dark, dank, drug ridden and degenerate. It was a testament to the times I suppose.
I spoke to crazy Gem last night. She said shed being thinking about me. I kinda blushed for some reason. Told me to phone her if I got bored/lonely or just wanted to chat. Crazy Gemma is cool.

Blaggard [11:36 AM]

[ Thursday, April 17, 2003 ]

 
Well today has been very relaxing thankfully. Nothing too stressful. Went with Ally over the Co-op and we bought some ice lollies. Sat out in the sun and she babbled on about stuff. It was kind of nice just to be talked at by someone without having to really reply. Just to listen. Its been ages since Ive just listened to someone talk. I kind of miss it. Being too wrapped up in my own nonsense. Went down town to call a house I saw in an adervtisement. It had, unsurprisingly, been taken. Still, it was good to get out in the sunshine and go for a walk. Just me and some music in the ears.
I had a microwave dinner. Smoked some cigarettes, did a little work. Not nearly enough. Smoked more. Watched Spiderman. Then just sat here thinking. For some reason I thought about what it would feel like to get shot in the chest. I thought about Gemma.
Laura and Helen get here at about 11:30 tomorrow. Ill get up at 9, so then there will be some time to do some work. Ill take a lazy walk into town and meet them. They are both going back on Saturday night so Ill have Sunday to work. Im gonna get them shit faced tomorrow.

We went to the Ship and Castle yesterday. Its been a long time since Id been in there. I never really noticed it before but it is an Irish bar, there is a flag on the wall and there were a load of old Irish guys playing folk music in there. I reckon the barmaid was junky. She had that look to her, well the kind of look youd only notice if you knew what you were looking for. The barman was Irish, had a big dog walking round the place. Did a damned excellent drop of ale in there. Ill try and drag Helen and Laura in there tomorrow. I think I may cook for them. Was thinking about doing Pizzas, making them though. Most likely though Ill be lazy and just take them to Spoons, cause its easier. Its so damned hot today. I need to start burning stuff to CD. Thus I need to buy a large amount of blank CD's.
Blaggard [11:58 PM]

 
Finally some rest. Sweet rest. Quiet. A little Type O Negative playing at a low volume. Peace. Cool breeze coming through the window. Just me and the ether. Its nearly been a whole week since a proper update. Im tired, so tired. Yet this is merely the strange quiet at the eye of the storm. Tomorrow at 11:30 it starts again. Hopefully less savage. Less brutal. Much less Fear.
Went back to Birmingham with Clare on Saturday. We stopped for lunch in some backwater hole. Went up Broad Street on the night. It was good. Me and Clare just laughed and drank like crazy. Went to the Rose and Crown first. That was cool, saw those old drunks Pete and Phil. Me and Clare played up to Rhi's and Fish's suspsions of us going out. Held hands for a bit and did werid couple stuff. It was hilarious. Got drunk and ate a MotherFucker. Took ages to get home. Went to Sports Cafe and bar Riza. Me and Clare wanted to go to the strip club, we didnt though.
Sunday went for a meal with Crone. Monday bought a TFT screen. 17", very nice. Actually have some space on my desk. Went down to Spoons on the night. Morley was back in town so got to see him. Ended up going for a balti at the Ameena. Clowe was shit faced. Tuesday came and the shit hit the fan. Ears, Snead and Clowe came down here to Aber. We got blind drunk. Snead kept ramming the Fear on me by going into Rhi's room and watching her tele. Damn it. Ill get in the shit if she thinks someone has been in her room. Gah. Went out again last night but I was knackered. Couldent keep my eyes open. Only slept for four hours previous to that. They went about 12ish today. I sat in a freezing cold shower and drifted into the void. Gemma phoned me last night, she said she missed me. Im going to go house hunting soon. Palin left me 400 B&H in the kitchen. A welcome present I tell you....well I will have to pay for them but it was nice to come back to.
Somewhere during the madness I managed to do worksheet 5 and some of worksheet 6 for CS10210. Today Im going to crack into the Java and burn on it long and hard. North Wales next week. So less time.
Helen and Laura are coming here tomorrow. Seeing Laura again last weekend was werid. She seemed so much older. She always thought I liked Helen, most guys do, but that wasnt the case. Its a shame. Of course it never would have worked. What with me going to Uni....and her being 16 I guess. Almost 3 years between us. Thats werid I suppose. She doesnt look or act 16 though, like she has been hanging around with us forever.
For some reason I have strange desire to relive those old house parties. Anyway, Im going to buy an ice cream with Ally.
Blaggard [2:11 PM]

[ Wednesday, April 16, 2003 ]

 
Snead is fucking destroying this house. Im locking them all out of room at the moment, I think Snead broke into Rhians room and trashed. How the fuck am I going to explain that? I was in bed at the time. The ceiling is covered in wads of wet paper. Right now they are razzing round the village in Ears new car. As far as they know Im still asleep, lets keep it that way for a little. Im tired, hungover and apparently we are picking up a load of Welsh speaking people from the Gate at 8 this evening. Gah, I just want to rest now.
Blaggard [10:28 AM]

[ Friday, April 11, 2003 ]

 
Ah today has once again been a good day. Went down town with Clare and went to that shop where she saw the dress, it was finally open but they didnt actually sell the dress they had in the window, just the material. Went to Burtons and I got myself two shirts. I finally have clubbing gear, I wont look like such a muppet now. It was kinda funny, I just got Clare to pick everything and then got her opinion of if I looked like a complete fuckwit in it. I have no idea when it comes to stuff like that, I hate wearing clothes like that, dont feel comfortable in them at all. If it not black and half gothy Im not very interested.
Then we went to Varsity(once again). I bought Clare lunch as a Easter kinda present. It was a good lunch today, couldent finish it all though. I had nachos and she had a chicken ceaser wrap. They gave me a massive amount. We went for a walk in the woods. Came back here, did some Java and then watched Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back. It was silly. Right now I think Ill probably do some more Java, although Im kinda stuck on it. Nevermind I can write the tests even though they wont compile for shit. No idea what Im doing although Ill be able to jot some tests. Something is better than nothing. Over the weekend Ill probably try and do the 102 worksheets, dont need any software to do that. Just notepad and web access, which Im sure even The Crones ancient beast can handle. I know what will happen though, I just sit around and play on the PS2 till Tuesday and get fuck all day.
Ye Gods man. Lets get to work.

Blaggard [8:58 PM]

 
Ah its been a relaxing ole time. The BBQ yesterday was really good. Nice and relaxing. Ate a few burgers, talked to some friends. Nice and chilled. Went and got my haircut. Only after it had been lopped did I realise just how long Id let it grow. I prefer it the way it is now, much more comfortable. Andy came back and picked up his brother yesterday so I saw him for a bit. Went round Clare for a bit in the afternoon and listened to music. Gill came up on MSN so I left. Lazed around and did a very small amount of work.
Went down town in on the night with Clare. Went to Cambrian and The Glen, we played pool solidly pretty much all night, easily threw £5 worth of cash in the machines.
The Glen is seriously dead lately. They are going to have to come up with one major business plan if they intend to stay in business. If they bought back 35p vodka and put the pint prices below the £2 mark they would see an almost immeadiate increase in trade. Word travels fast in student towns, take it from my drunken ass. If pint prices change you hear about it within a day, week at the very most.
I drank a couple of pints of Guinness.
We got pizza on the way back up. Went to Clare and we watched the weridest fucking TV program. I have no idea what it was about, but this group of girls who were proud of thier virginity rode around on bikes. We ate ice cream.
My MP3 player got here this morning. Ive been playing with it all morning. Got three albums on there with enough space for another one left. Im gonna use that one to record stuff with though. Set up and audio section.
So in about 30 mins Im heading down town with Clare to buy a shirt. I realised I dont actually have any clubbing shirts that fit me. I would have happily worn my torn up grease stained blue one. But I give into to constant nagging easily.
Blaggard [12:57 PM]

[ Thursday, April 10, 2003 ]

 
Right, Im in an evil bastard lets get arrested for slander kinda mood.

Shania Twain is the biggest fuckwit this side of Bush. Here we have a woman who is stinking fucking rich, loaded to the eyeballs with cash, singing about the woes of a consumerist lifestyle. Which is all well and good I too am not consumerisms greatest fan, but look at this bitch. She is loaded, her income releys on people buying the shit she spouts. Hell, I even pirated this song just to wind myself up enough to write this thing. Haha, the irony would be if everyone took her seriously and no one bought the single. Oh how I would laugh. But no. If there is one thing Ive learnt is that people are fucking stupid. They will buy this and not really pay attention to it. Itll be funny, in a way. Kinda like fucking a corpse.

Well...metaphorically.

Anyway. I think I may have a shower and smoke.
Blaggard [12:42 PM]

[ Wednesday, April 09, 2003 ]

 
Well I spent the whole day with Clare again. Headed out about 12:30 and stopped in at residential services to check on a house. Nothing there. Went down into town, went to the Chemists for Clare to put in her prescription. Then we headed over to a dress shop, where she had eyed a dress the nightbefore.
Ah yes Tuesday night. Clare, Fish, Joesph and me went into town. Varsity, Cambrian and The Glen. Then went to get food. Was nothing spectactular. She spotted a red dress she really liked in the shop opposite Hollywood pizza.
We got there today, our sole purpose for being in town and it was closed. No times of opening listed on the window ethier. Clare was a bit miffed. So we went to the Varsity. Yet again. She had lunch, I had a coke and a cup of coffee. We went down to the chemists and picked up her prescription. Went to get her haircut. Had to wait 40 minutes so we went and sat in Acadamy and played lots of pool. While she went to have her haircut I went to see if I could get mine done. Had to make an apointment, 4pm tomorrow, was eithier that or 9am. 9am my ass. Looked for a book in a book shop and went back to the Acadamy. Just sat back down with a beer and Clare walked in. We played pool till about 5:30 and then walked down to the seafront. Went into the amusements place. She was meeting a friend at 6 outside an abandoned cafe. Got there for just after 6. Said goodbye, came back and cooked a curry.
Loads of people think me and her are togeather, its simply not the case though. I dont really know where to begin telling them its very unlikely that we will ever happen. But its kinda funny anyways. Shes gone to the cinema 2nite with Alice.
Ive been doing Java all night. We post poned the BBQ till tomorrow, Andy will be down here then. Its his 21st so we thought we would wait till then. Fish goes back tomorrow. Spoke to Ears Monster on the phone. I might buy his old car off him, only £350, not a bad runner on the petrol, cause its got all his rudeboy additions to it but they can be ripped off. Might take him up on it. Might even get his bass box on it. I gonna have to pass the damn test this summer. Thinking about doing a week long intensive burst. Ears, Kingdingaling and Clowe are comin on down next week I think. Its gonna be a disapointment for em mind, town is dead. Closest thing we are gonna get to a hardcore party is Pier. Even that will be weak at the moment.
Friday = Shrewsbury with Clare
Saturday = Brum, for big uber boozeathon with Clare and Rhi. Rhi is nervous about doing this thing. I dont blame her. Brum is a fucking hole. Its one long bout of the fear after the next. Great fun eh? Saturday early evening gonna sit in the pub with Pete n Clowe and shoot the shit. As long as Petes buyin. Then spoons. Then broad street. Then....well lets worry about that when the time comes.
Blaggard [10:23 PM]

[ Tuesday, April 08, 2003 ]

 
Spent most of the day in town with Clare again. We went back to actually get some food this time as we never got around to it yesterday. Ended up going a few places first of course. Clare grabbed some lunch in a nice little cafe called Spartakus 2 or something like that. Went to Dorothy Perkins where she did some clothes shopping. She said I had to do the boyfriend thing and hold all the clothes for her. Hehe, said it would be an experience for both of us. Indeed it was. Ended up standing around in the undergarments section of the shop while she tried stuff, everyone was giving me werid looks. I went outside for a smoke, rolled a pretty good cigarette, went to light it.....lighter had no petrol in it. I almost cried. Went back in.
In the end she got a pair of trousers and two tops. We went down to a card shop. Her friend Amanda was in there. We chatted for a bit. Turns out she is from none other than The Gate. Yes that grease pit Colley Gate. Id probably seen her a few times there and not even realised it. She said she didnt particulary want to go back eithier. What is it about that part of the world and everyone wanting to get out of it? She must have had a pint in The Gate, its enough to drive anyone insane. Anyway she got a card for Andy, it is his 21st on Thursday. She bought a load of Easter Eggs and gave me one. We are goin to Shrewsbury on Friday so Ill get her something then, a top or something probably. Or buy her lunch. Gill might get jealous. Yea then to Argos, she had to get some new bed stuff. Luckily the bank agreed to extend her overdraft till her loan cheque came through.
Looks like im going back to Brum on Saturday, taking Clare with me hopefully and hitting Broad Street. Go and see Clowe and Pete down the Crown. Coming back Tuesday at the latest, with Ears and Clowe at the very least in tow.
Managed to get to Iceland in the end and bought loads of food. Got BBQ stuff. We are going to have a BBQ tomorrow night. Tonight going to Varsity. Ill probably drink a few beers 2nite. Especially if its a £1 a pint still in the holidays. Try and drag everyone to Pier. Im skeptical about that one though. It is student night though so should be cheap.

Anyway, manged to get the list to function and sort things correctly in my prog. Ive wrote the code for the serialisation, it all compiles. But I know know if it runs yet. Ill do that tomorrow. Then the other list is pretty much the same. Implement that as well. Hopefully start on the JUnit shit as well, yes I know that should come first but I aint got a fuckin clue how it works.
Anyway, time to do sit ups n have a shave.

Blaggard [7:59 PM]

 
Ah its been a really grreat day. Got a reasonable amount of work done. Went down town with Clare. We were all the town. She dragged me round looking at clothes and phones. Collected my films that I took in the other day. There was quite a few good shots in there, some Ive left out because they me look like a pervert. As I know that everyone about that I know, shit even my tutorial group, look at that web page now. Also I was quite disturbed by the amount of photos of one person were on there. Especially considering what alot of people have being saying to me recently. Fuck. Its best not to even think about it. Whatever it is, is currently manifesting its self only in the sub level. Lets keep it there for as long as possible. My head is finally half straight and Id like it to be that way for a good while.
Although its nice to have a rest at the moment. A break from the madness if you will, it has given me too much time to sit and think about things. No one to distract me.

So anyway. Me and Clare ended up going back to Varsity for food. Extremly good food infact, got a massive amount of food. We both had 20oz pasties with chips and beans. It was on two for one. Hehe, clare kept trying to drag me into Burtons to get top hat and tails. I refused and started running off. We went into the post office to post of that CD for Gill. Dropped some stuff off round her friends house. Coming back up we went into the woods and walked up to the view point and just sat there looking out on the world for a good 30 minutes. It was really nice and relaxing. Saw the place where the Dean of the Uni lives. We got our eyes on a massive metal cockeral to steal one night. We reckon it will take about 3 of us to succesfully make off with the thing.
Came back here and did some work Java and then watched Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. That probably is one of my favourite films.
For some reason I feel obliterated now. I suppose I have been walking around all day long.
Looks like Im going into town with her again tomorrow. I forgot to buy any food to live on.
Blaggard [12:26 AM]

[ Monday, April 07, 2003 ]

 
Ah its been a really nice day today. I woke up about 11ish and actually felt like Id rested. After getting my fantastic amount of sleep on Wednesday night I havent really caught up and felt like a bit of a zombie. I did quite a bit of coding today. Had to throw out most of the stuff I did on Thursday, during my coffee binge. The binge I feel isnt really responsible for this but more the fact I tried to implement the lists using a way I didnt really understand during the lectures, so Ive gone to writing the whole implementation myself. Think I may try and implement the binary search, may score some brownie points with Loftus. Fish ran off to see Rhi today. Im surprised to see him actually give a fuck about a woman, he actually likes her.
He best do this damned project work.
Anyway, went over to the Co-op in the afternoon and bought a loaf of bread and a pack of rolling baccy. I came back, sat down and can now roll a half decent smoke. It suddenly all seemed to click. Did a little code and then fucked around on the network. Read quite a bit from my book as well, started to watch Goodfellas. Went down to Varsity with Clare at about 8:30. It was a really nice night, sipped on the cokes would you beileve, she ordered a tuna melt of some kind. We talked about everything. She is really excited about Gill, her girlfriend. Its nice to see her so happy, went back to hers after and she started to compile a CD of Gills favourite songs to send to her. Im going down town with her tomorrow to pick up my films and get some shopping. She has to get her overdraft extended for a short period, until her next loan cheque comes through.
I went for another one of my walks around the village earlier. I thought GemGem was back for a while as she left her light on. I looked around for her car but couldent see it. Rhi's light and window is open as well. She might be back. Fish went to see her today.....my earphones are firmly located on my head.
Blaggard [1:22 AM]

[ Sunday, April 06, 2003 ]

 
I just went for a walk around Uni. Why I dont know. I just had an urge to move, to get out there find someone, anyone. Find some people. I went and sat down on La Scala. There was nothing but quiet. Exactly a week before I was rolling around drunk with all my friends. Laughing with people. I sat up there tonight, in the cold quiet, just thinking about everything. Everything that has happened to me since I came here. I thought alot about Jess and that night in Reload when she just grabbed and kissed me. I thought about Gemma. I thought about life and God.
Am I the only one here who does not have a clue what he is doing? Where he is going ? What he wants or how he intends to get it? Am I the only one who feels alone?

All through high school my teachers always used to say I had a wild imagination. Why cant I ever put it to good use? All the books of read, all the shit Ive learnt. Why when it comes to the moment do the words fail me and slip away?
While me and Fish were in the burger place today he said he could see me ending up like Micheal Moore. Making films and writing books and trying to change things. Yet all I ever seem to do is fall in love with someone, get rejected, freak out and repeat the cycle.
Blaggard [12:52 AM]

[ Saturday, April 05, 2003 ]

 
Well its been an interesting day. Fish turned up on the doorstep, bored, asking if i wanted to go into town. Well y not I thought? I manged to do some project work this morning. Set up the JUint testing stuff and started figuring out how to use it. We walked into town, took two films into be developed, gotta pick them up on Monday. We went to some local phone shop then to Dixions. Ive been thinking about getting an MP3 player. They didnt have the one I wanted there so we got an ice cream and treked all the way over to the business park to look in Currys. Nothing there eithier. We went to a burger place. Came back and ordered the one I was after from Amazon, £130 gone.
Right now Im just purusing the network looking for...well looking for anything really.
Going to Spoons later, no idea what time. But I am.
Blaggard [5:49 PM]

 
Well it looks like Semester 2 is over. The last of em are all packing thier things up and heading out this morning. I can hear Cal and Khang cramming bags and banging doors. Rhi went yesterday, so did Jason. Everyone else is going this morning. Cept Fish, Joesph and Clare. Me and Clare are planning to do a few things over the holiday. We are going down to Spoons 2nite for a meal and I think we are going to Shrewsbury one day. Ive never been there so it would be good to go just so I can say Ive been there.
Its going to be a relatively quiet Easter though I think. Going to see Palin and Jason in the 3rd week. Oh yea I chatted up an Irish girl on Thursday night. I completly forgot about it. Fish was very impressed with me yesterday, I didnt even realise I was chatting her up. She was just someone at the bar who looked interesting to talk to.
Last night was a dignified end to the semester. GemGem, Rach, Tracy, Andy, Ben(gemmas brother), Fish. We went out to Scholars and sat there talking. I didnt really drink much. I just wanted to talk to these guys. Three weeks is a long time not to see any of them after being even more close to them all this term than last. Especially now things are finally all cool with GemGem. We then dashed up to Acadamy. Walked over to the Pier and Ben(gemmas brother) started talking to me all about his love life. For some reason he just started talking about Crazy Gemma. I told him that I asked her out the previous, well kinda...theres no need to go into the technicalities. He said that was talking about me. That she felt like such a bitch for not liking me or something along those lines.
She really really shouldent. I dont like people feeling bad because of me. Anyway Easter is here. Got some serious coding to undertake and some serious sleeping to catch up on.
Blaggard [11:37 AM]

[ Friday, April 04, 2003 ]

 
Ah last night was a cracker. I got hideosly shit faced and had a good ole time all night. We went down to the town, Cambrian and then Varsity before hitting the Pier. It was cool.
Unfortunatly that asshat Aidan was in the pier. I still want to bottle the cunt. Not because I really want to be with gemma anymore but because of the way he is treating her. She went mad at him, I was impressed. She seemed ok after that if not a little worked up. I spent most of the evening talking some guy from Turkey. He was in town visting his friends who own Aber Kebab. He kept giving me cigarettes, we bought he each a few drinks. I got molested by a 40 year old, that was pretty good. Rach was drunk. Crazy Gem was drunk, she went off with GemGems brother. Maybe they fucked, maybe they didnt. Ill interrogate the poor boy later! Just to make him embaressed.

We just about passed the inspection today. They came in while I was still bed, told me to pick my clothes up off the floor. Decided not to do that. Just cause there are clothes on the floor dont mean the place is dirty, just means im a slob. Im really fucking hungover. Palin is off skiing in a bit, lucky git. Got two films to get developed.

Blaggard [2:05 PM]

[ Thursday, April 03, 2003 ]

 
Today is the first time Ive ever censored myself on this blog. I deleted a post that I wrote this morning, while a little cranky and after having little sleep. It didnt need to be said and I had to right to be pissed. I was just cranky and tired. I act like a dick sometimes.

BBQ at Borth on Wednesday was fucking cool. Had a blast. Me and Gemma spoke again on the night. She really is a very thoughtful and intelligent person. Even more so than I gave her credit for. Surprised what absolute brilliance someone can say sometimes. One day we are going to sit down and talk about everything. The world, our lives, the universe and why we hurt. I just get the feeling its going to happen. She offered to help me with anything. However I think Ill restrain from telling her something unless I have to, she has a lot of problems. She knows so much more than I do. Id like to learn it.
I did something kinda silly today, but sorted it.

Got back assignment one results and Wednesdays test result.

Assignment 1 = 2:1
Test = 3rd

The test went very badly. Im going to have to revise like a bastard over Easter. Ive already drawn up some preliminary plans.

You should have seen much code I wrote today in the midst of a whild coffee binge.
Blaggard [7:55 PM]

[ Wednesday, April 02, 2003 ]

 
Right now I should be cramming a final few chunks of info for this test. But instead Im listening to my new Dope cd. Hell, I actually bought some music. Oddly enough if it hadnt been for MP3 I probably would have never heard of these guys, and the RIAA say MP3 is bad for business. Hell anyway, I spent ages last night messing around with other people HTML code, just because I didnt want to revise. Made an hilarious paraody of the CNN site...but since I stole all of thier source code its probably best I dont post it or link it. Spent a good 30 minutes trawling through the BBC news archives as well. Catrin seems to get her nose in everywhere lately. There was another article with her in it. I think she got elected to the post she ran for in the guild elections as well. Freedom surrdenders. Damned nationalists.
Weather is still looking grotty, its cloudy with the odd burst of sun. Havent been outside to check the temprature mind, its too damned early. Charlie sent me a message last night saying I should go into the sea. May well do that. Straight after this exam though, Im going to come back here and clean the place from top to bottom. No one else is going to do it unless I do now. Rhi is never here anymore.

Blaggard [9:36 AM]

[ Tuesday, April 01, 2003 ]

 
This has been one long day. One of those days that starts off slow and never really seems to progress beyond that. Got up at 9, had a shower, went to 102. There was less than half of the class in attendance. Went to 154, was bored out of skull even though the lecturer used me and everyone on my row for a physical example of how parallel tranmission (I think it was anyway) worked. Went to Co-op and bought some pies and a balti. Ate said Balti. 124 got cancelled for reasons no one seems to have any clue about. Despite the fact I should have been exstatic at having lectures cancelled he is actually going over something that will be useful for my party in the project at the moment. That was a bit of a bastard.

In any spare moments Ive been revising. Staying in all 2nite. Not even going over to the bar, Spence asked me down there for a swift un, I will decline. Got a fun packed end of week planned anyway. Im also considering shelling out for a £130 MP3 player. But then I think of all the money Ive spent recently. Its not that I aint got the cash, its just that I dont think I should blow it all on such things.
Tomorrow is the BBQ. Weather turned very nasty today but the forecast for tomorrow is better, no rain but I get the feeling it will probably be kinda windy. Hopefully we will do it anyway. Could have the BBQ just stuck outside someones door......
I saw the sea rescue helicopter out this morning. But Ive heard nothing about it.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/wales/2853369.stm

This Catrin girl stood at the Uni elections this term. She was backed by Plaid Cymru(Welsh version of the tories....well close enough). She is kinda hot, but I remember thinking when I saw the posters "Just because shes got a pretty face doesnt mean shes not a facist bastard"
But saying that I agree that the signs should also be provided in Welsh. Since coming here Ive gained a certain desire to start speaking the language just so I know what people are saying about me behind my back.
Exam hits bright and early at 10am tomorrow. Going to get up about 8 and go over streams. Thats what is giving me the most trouble at the moment. Drink a 'generous' cup of Rocket Fuel just to sharpen my senses before the test.
Then freak out and do fuck all work till Saturday when everyones gone home. Hopefully Sam should be down here next Wednesday, cool.




Blaggard [9:20 PM]